a tiny section of my body
was excised, sent off for biopsy
a day or two later
somebody jokingly asked
how I thought my mole was going
I found I could not bear to think of
that small piece of me
floating in clear fluid in a plastic bottle
in a pathologist’s office
irretrievable, irrevocably
exiled
I was left with a cavity
that has sealed itself over
with the help of two continuous sutures
now that the stitches are out and a week has gone by
I massage the scar for five minutes twice a day
using, as advised, two fingers
and as much pressure as I can tolerate
to prevent the join
hardening
I am astounded by the depth of its colour
other parts of me have been lost
other scars left to harden
these are not so visible
I have stopped ignoring them nonetheless
have stopped trying to disguise them
with complaisance, competence, facts-at-the-ready
I return to them, feel for
their shapes under the surface
attest their presence
with as much pressure as I can tolerate
I speak to them
tell them
that they are no longer alone
Tricia Dearborn
Tricia Dearborn’s poetry has been widely published in literary journals in Australia, overseas and online, and in anthologies such as Contemporary Australian Poetry, Australian Poetry since 1788 and The Best Australian Poems. Her third full-length collection, Autobiochemistry, completed with the support of an Australia Council grant, is forthcoming from UWA Publishing.
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